A Revelatory Year (And a New Home!)

30 Sep

*Any images on this site of Kristen, Rob, the Featured Royal Rebel, and movie production are not mine. My images come from Kstewartfan.org, Google Images and Photobucket. The Indo pics and the MOOQ domain, however, are mine*

WELCOME TO THE NEW HOME OF MUSINGS ON OTHER QUEENS! Dear friends, new readers, O.G. readers, KStew and Rob supporters, Team Other mates, and pursuers of Bliss and Creativity: I am grateful that you’ve stuck with me while I’ve ventured out into this somewhat unstable territory of public rambling, and I am so pleased to share the new digs with you. Buff has been working extra hard to bring the pretty, and CC is my Archive-Transferring Goddess. She’s a Pioneer as she just brought her brilliant site KStew Is Better Than You (KSIBTU) over to this blog host a couple days ago to a vey warm reception. So change your bookmarks, kids, MusingsOnOtherQueens has it’s own domain!


Today’s essay will be a vintage Musings essay complete with a Featured Rebel Royal annnnnd the official commencement of the Musings On Other Soundtrack Giveway, a.k.a., KJ’s-Old-School-Love-Letter/Mixed-Tape-To-The-Extraordinary-Readers-and-Followers-of-Musings! So kick back, relax, grab a cold one (you know somewhere it’s 5 o’clock!), because I’m a wordy bitch, and today is like Opening Day, so watch out! Stick around after the essay for a few more…um..words, if you would be so kind.

The moments that seem to be great failures, followed by wreckage, were the incidents that shaped your life now~~ Joseph Campbell

A year ago, September-October-ish 2009. Where were you? In Cali, where we really don’t have seasons to note the months passing, only the fact our street lights flicker on earlier in the evening than they did previous evenings, the weather was unseasonably warm, much like it is this year. A year ago, Musings did not exist, I was in my first month of unemployment after leaving BastardNation, and I was still flitting around entertainment sites seeking snippets of news about Kristen, having not yet officially convened with the ladies I now refer to as my Sisters & Readers. Our Other Queen Kristen had finished her summer portraying another Rebel Queen in The Runaways and was in Vancouver filming Eclipse.

Our first glimpse of The Wig. The WIN in this pic? BILLY. BURKE. #TeamCharlie

Where were you when the first pics of Eclipse surfaced? Did you cringe or defend The Wig when you first laid eyes on it? Were you like me, and just so happy to see Kristen and Rob and Billy mother-freakin Burke after a torturous summer severely lacking the Stewie, that you didn’t really care about The Wig? Were you still kinda riding high, because after all the vicious rumors and stories attacking Kristen and Rob, images like this burned in your mind still?

Closer much?

A year ago,  I was a somewhat lost lurker on the blogs and gossip sites, slowly making connections to fellow Kris and Rob fans simply by joining in discussions on comment boards and not willingly admitting I had a problem. A Robsten problem. By the way, only this and one other time will I refer to Rob and Kristen as one entity, because I detest the idea of labeling (see last week’s Musings) and its support of losing identity and individuality to a brand. But let me tell you why I finally admitted defeat and recognized that I was deeply fascinated by Kristen Stewart and Rob Pattinson. This time last year, I was in Bali, Indonesia. I was going to N’s homeland for the first time since we’d been married, a year and a half earlier. I was going to hang with the in-laws. Sample amazing food. See beauty through the lens of a culture on the other side of the planet. I had two and a half weeks in island paradise, and got to visit one of the Seventh Wonders:


Balinese market = Coexistence

One guess as to what I did when and if  (because in 3rd-world countries, Wifi isn’t always readily accessible) I had internet connection at the hotel at night. YUP. I would google the latest news on Eclipse filming and Kristen and Rob sightings.  From Bali, you guys. Though I was in a beautiful, impacting land of color, coexistence and spirituality, I still wondered when we’d see pics like THIS:

Whoops! This wouldn't come for another 6 wks, but it's so so good to see!

I snapped out of my K&R Reverie when West Sumatra, Indonesia, maybe 700 miles north of our location, experienced an Earthquake of 7.0 magnitude, sparking tsunami warnings. My poor friends and family tried frantically to contact us via any channels they could: emails, Facebook, phone (despite the 14 hour time difference and the astronomical calling rates). We were unscathed, unaware, but for several dreadful hours no one back at home in The States knew this. Nothing like a Tsunani scare to shake one out of a YouTube-induced ORD (Obsessive Robsten Disorder), hmmm? *And that was the second and last time I’ll refer to that “nickname”, but BIG W00T to The ORD Society*

Googlesearch Family: Tsunami Indonesia. Googlesearch KJ: Kris & Rob. Eclipse.

What a difference a year makes! What were you all up to last year? Who were your friends? Where were you working? What level of awareness did you have regarding your own level of ORD? Kristen and Rob were ensconced firmly in Vancouver, staying in the same hotel together in adjoining rooms (we later learned this from their interview with Harpers Bazaar). They had survived a brutal summer apart on different coasts: she was in L.A. portraying the bad ass and brilliant Joan Jett to Dakota Fanning’s Neon Angel Cherie Currie; he was filming Remember Me in New York.

I was floating around homeless in every sense of the word, since I was moving back to my childhood home while I regrouped from the tragedy (read: MIRACLE BUBBLES) that was the lay-off from BastardNation, and about two months away from finding a place with Sisters & Readers in the K & R world. My time in Indonesia was meant as a cleansing experience before I returned to the reality of my fucked-up situation: I needed a job, I needed to move back to my soul’s home, I needed to break away from inethical managers, and I needed to return to living soulfully and creatively.

Dancing in the bubbles was the Best. Decision. Ever.

It was a difficult year for Kristen, navigating the pitfalls of fame, a long-distance relationship, publicly, with a partner who is equally well-known and sought after. The success of Twilight brought her opportunities to participate in movies about which she cares deeply (The Runaways, On the Road), but work and Vultures, trash-talking media hounds and spiteful bloggers constantly plagued her, still plague her. But that time, a year ago, much like my despair in the aftermath of BastardNation and The Layoff-turned-move, helped inform and shape current fortunes and successes for Kristen. She has wrapped her work in the already-legendary On the Road, and is enjoying a little break in filming with Rob before embarking on the 6-month journey of filming Breaking Dawn. And I, have launched a magical little practice and have created Musings which has brought me countless blessings in the form of close friendships and daily inspirations.

Featured Rebel Royal: James Franco

He’s been a Freak and Geek, James Dean, Spiderman’s Bestie, a loveable Stoner, a politician’s gay lover on screen and in films. And he is a recurring character on soap opera General Hospital as well, though I have no idea where he finds the time between his 12 other occupations. Additionally in 3D life, James Franco is a director, a writer,  painter and grad student, poised to begin  his Ph.D. in English at Yale this this semester. A California native, James dropped out of UCLA in his first semester to pursue an acting career. He moved through acting school for a year and a half onto his first known role on the cult classic Freaks and Geeks, connecting him with future collaborators and stars Seth Rogan (Knocked Up), director/writer Judd Apatow (Funny People), Martin Starr (Adventureland). Though the show only lasted one year, despite critical praise and it’s small but devoted following, James went on to land the role of James Dean in the TV biopic about the late actor.

The comparisons began immediately

His most successful films to date have been through the Spiderman movies, where James portrays Harry Osborn, Peter Parker’s best friend, and tortured son of one of Spidey’s nemeses. Just as James reported feeling a restlessness within the film world, he decided to return to school, attending UCLA ten years after he dropped out the first time. Of course, as the Universe is funny this way, the moment he wanted to withdraw from the film world, his career began to blow up. The roles for Pineapple Express and Milk arose simultaneously, and James found himself in the thick of finishing his bachelors and masters degrees in literature and creative writing while witnessing his film career flourish. His professors, classmates and girlfriend all report James’ almost ‘reckless’ energy poured into all his creative projects and he would not sleep nor eat if people did not bring his food to him, and if he didn’t take cat naps throughout the day. His work ethic is admirable and puzzling to the Hollywood folks, which is fine by James, as he doesn’t listen to criticisms or concern doled out by peers. He lives in New York where he participates in painting, directing and writing short stories when he’s not filming movies or in California for General Hospital.

Amidst speculation on his activity level (Showbiz Folk usually have multiple avenues for expression, but James Franco’s dedication to so many different facets is impressive and mystifying, reports the New York Magazine interviewer Sam Anderson); his sexuality (about which he refuses to clarify), his love life (he’s involved with an actress he met while in acting school) and  his artwork (he recently showed his paintings at the Museum of Contemporary Art in Los Angeles; he’s had short stories published to some acclaim), James Franco embodies the very spirit of Other Royalty. He simply cannot be categorized, and he is unapologetic about it.


* Declines from clarifying speculation on his sexuality and love life

*Believes he can successfully finish all of his creative pursuits

*Does not crave celebrity or fame


Well our reigning Other Queen has been vintage NinjaStew for the past couple weeks and her presence is missed, but understood. She wrapped work on the already-highly anticipated film adaption of Kerouac’s On the Road just this past weekend, and even though there were no pictures, we suspect she’s home in Los Angeles for a brief interlude before beginning pre-prod on Breaking Dawn. Our Stewie has perfected the art of Stealth which I am very pleased about. The girl needs her privacy, and she deserves a break from the glare and judgement of the gossip mongers who seek her failure of career and heart. In her absence, tabloids and bored “entertainment journalists” like to concoct ridiculous rumors such as jealousy and fighting between herself and other actresses (this week the featured catfight is with the lovely Emma Watson of  the Harry Potter films) . But I prefer to keep my eyes and ears open to the positive answers to the rumor-mongering. Last week, @pinklove24 compiled several (not all mind you, because Girlfriend has an impressive amount of Covers under her belt) of Kristen’s magazine covers into a lovely collage of ROYAL GORGEOUSNESS:

A Pretty Good Year Indeed, Ms Stewart

Also, the buzz around Kristen’s new movie Welcome to the Rileys is growing louder as the film prepares to be showcased at several film festivals in the approaching month. As more film critics view the movie, more accolades and awards-whispers trickle in for our girl. A UK entertainment journalist claims, “Not only is there life after Twilight [For Stewart] but it appears that the best is yet to come from the actress”. And Giovanni Argonaut, producer of Welcome to the Rileys says simply, “Kristen is heartbreaking in this film…worthy of awards”.

A year ago, our Other Queen covered her dyed-black shag with a Bella Swan Wig (that didn’t look as bad on film, honestly), and navigated the flood of attention, doubt and criticism because she chose to accept a role in an what became an extraordinarily popular film franchise…and she chose to keep the company of a certain London Boy. We watched her evolve from a nervous, endearingly awkward and shy girl promoting Twilight to a nervous, endearingly awkward and shy woman navigating the promotion of New Moon and Eclipse. However, she exuded assuredness and an awareness of boundaries more than she had previously. And she had several new film projects to which her name is attached. Next year at this time, when we check back, we may find she has several awards to further endorse her growing confidence and talent.


*Does not clarify or pander to questions regarding her personal life

*Believes in pursuing many avenues of creativity: music, writing, acting

*Does not crave celebrity nor fame, though fame craves her

Because he is considered mystifying and brilliant, though sweetly eccentric and odd by his peers and journalists, James Franco is a beautiful example of a Majestic Misfit.

Because she makes great effort to withdraw from publicity, celebrity and fame, even while her star is set to explode even further than it already is now, Kristen is our long-time and probably-always-will-be Reigning Queen of Other.



So here are the tracks on the Musing On Others Soundtrack aka KJ’s Old-School Love Sonnet To Otherness. The song order is not quite set in stone, but the tracks chosen, barring any complications, are accurate. I realized I play at least 3 songs every essay and I couldn’t fit all the ones I wanted here, but perhaps, if you all wish so, I’ll make a volume 2 of Love Sonnets for Others. If the track information changes, I’ll let ya know next week, most likely Tuesday, when the 5 Reader-WINNERS are announced. To enter in the giveaway, just leave a comment on this page (not on the About KJ or Twitter pages) with an email or twitter name by which I can reach you.

1. Dig–Incubus

2. Addicted to Love–Florence + The Machine

3. Hallelujah–Jeff Buckley

4. Crucify–Tori Amos

5. Soul to Squeeze–Red Hot Chili Peppers

6. The Devil’s Tears–Angus & Julia Stone

7. Wave of Mutilation (UK Surf)–Pixies

8. It’s a Fire–Portishead

9. Not Afraid–Eminem

10. The Shining–Badly Drawn Boy

11. Wake Up–Arcade Fire

12. Over The Rainbow/Wonderful Word–Iz

13. Never Tear Us Apart–INXS

14. Joyful Girl–Ani DiFranco

15. Acid Tongue–Jenny Lewis

16. Trouble–Ray La Montagne

17. **6th X–RW featuring KJ

** bonus track if I can get my paws on the recording, which I believe I can

If I can put more on there, I will. I’m not quite sure how many songs CDs hold these days, I’m spoiled by the expansive space of iTunes playlists unfortunately. But if I can add up to 5 more songs as I suspect I may be able to, I’ll  try to add in The Swell Season, Garbage, Paramore, B.O.B., Massive Attack, Lamb, Eastern Conference Champions among others.

Chucks and Tiaras Forever

Well, this was our first essay as an independent entity. You all deserve fist pumps and W00ts for hanging with me through this doozy of a ramble. Please take your time to explore the site and check out the links of OTHER SUPPORTERS, and BLISS-PURSUERS. There are 3 other pages aside from the Home Page displaying current Musings. ABOUT KJ, EMAIL & TWITTER, and ORIGINS OF MUSINGS. I’ve included little anecdotes and new information in all three pages. Leave comments and feedback on the essay but also on the other pages if you feel moved so. I am still in the process of transferring over old comments from previous posts, so don’t panic if you don’t see any old comments you’ve left. I also am building up a list of affiliates and sister sites to add to the link space on the side bar. Keep checking back as we continue to work on the site. As always, I love hearing from you, so please stop by and say hello.

James is Other.

Kristen is Other.

Others emerge creatively triumphant

when faced with challenges.

Embrace your Other.

QUESTION: Where were you a year ago while Kristen was embarking on filming for Eclipse? How have you resolved challenges in this year to pursue the projects you desire?

A/N: Mad props to Buff for this feast for the eyes, and for powering through and finding away for me to bring you the music . BUFF, YOU ARE AMAZING…Big squeezes and squeals for my girl CC who is my Transferring Goddess and late-night cohort. Thanks to Bouffant for providing me with the James Franco source and for feedback on the site upon first glimpse. As always, thanks to my cyber Sisters & Readers for supporting me no matter the tangent I flit…I LOVE YOU MADLY.

46 Responses to “A Revelatory Year (And a New Home!)”

  1. Michelle October 4, 2010 at 3:17 pm #

    Can you believe a year ago I had not seen Twilight yet? I think I was still reading the series, dying to finish it up (uhhh why was Breaking Dawn so freaking long?!?!) and pop the DVD in! I did see the airport pic when it came out which I think is what started my interest in all things Kristen & Rob.

    I love your look back at last year. Thank you for yet again sharing a bit of yourself with us by way our your travel photos. I feel changes in my life, personal and professionally, coming and can’t wait for it all to unfold.

    Last but not least – Congrats on your new pretty .com! Love it. You & the ‘team’ did a fantastic job. And thanks for the link on the sidebar to my little site. I’ve got a link on mine back to here as well. xx

    • MusingsOnOther October 5, 2010 at 11:23 am #

      Hi, my sweet! Thanks for peeking in and commenting on the site and the post. And you’re most certainly welcome for the link on the side bar to your glorious adventures, my friend, it’s my pleasure to connect up with my fellow bliss-seekers. You are simply showing us how it’s done. Wow a year ago, you were trying to get through BD and aching to pop in the DVD. What were your thoughts of the first movie? It’s been quite a year indeed, which included meeting some incredibly powerful, witty and thoughtful women (eying you)…I can’t wait to see how things unfold for you, me, K&R in this new year..Onward to the next adventure. xo, K

  2. Shopgrrl81 October 4, 2010 at 12:15 am #

    I’ve been reading your blog for quite awhile but haven’t ever commented. The new layout looks amazing and the post was as thoughtful as ever.

    Where was I a yr ago? I had just finished my JD, taken the bar, and was perfectly on track for the life I had always wanted. But the doubts and insecurties began to slip in at the 11th hr. Was this really the life I wanted? Truth is a year later and I’m still not sure. It never fails to makes me laugh how I was always the girl with the plans upon plans and I only found true uncertainty as an adult.

    • MusingsOnOther October 5, 2010 at 11:17 am #

      Hi there, my dear. Thanks for stopping in and making your first comment, and thank you for your kind feedback on the site and posts. It’s amazing how powerful the events of a brief period of time can be, isn’t it? The fact that you take a moment to consider your plans/hopes/pathway could very well be how you’ll actually find your personal truth. But I hear you on wondering where the certainty of a younger girl wandered off to. I sometimes grumble, “It really sucks to be a grownup”. But I’ve found that incorporating my childhood dreams is exactly why my adult life is shaping up to be more joyful and more certain. It’s still your plan. Just bigger. 🙂 Take care, xo, KJ

  3. robkris13 October 3, 2010 at 2:16 am #

    Sweet Sister!

    I love your new site and I’m so excited and happy for you! I look forward to many more posts for years to come!

    A year ago I was given this quote:

    “There is always one unexpected little moment in life when a door opens to let the future in”…Graham Greene

    This has been a year of discovering my future and I’m so honored you have been a part of it!

    ♥ Love always!

    • MusingsOnOther October 5, 2010 at 11:11 am #

      Hello my sweet, sweet sister. Thank you for stopping by and checking out the new site and post. What a beautiful quote and so very appropriate, yes? This year has been one of discovery and I also am so pleased and proud to have you be apart of my path as well. You are just lovely. Yours, xo, K

  4. Aai October 3, 2010 at 2:13 am #

    Kai! Babe!
    I found you – finally!
    Beautiful site (nice work Buff!)…So..where was I 1 year ago? I was teaching a class and hating every moment of it…and escaping into the strange world of Twilight….I was SO close to meeting you…what a year its been!! I am so grateful for everything that has brought us all together this year, and everything that has happened in my life. And its so good to hear how far you’ve come! How our lives have changed, hey?
    I love you Kai – look forward to reading more musings soon Possum!

    • MusingsOnOther October 5, 2010 at 11:10 am #

      Aai! My Possum!
      Thank you for your kind words, and hopefully, your days of struggling with the comment section are dead and gone…A year has been incredibly powerful for us, hasn’t it? This time last year I had almost met you my sweet..And you, like our other sisters, but especially our Possum Bestie Jai have become an integral part of my life. Luff you, and I look forward to what this year will bring us! xoxo, Kai

  5. true love October 2, 2010 at 9:04 pm #

    K..love love love love the new site….and of course beautiful post..as always..luv u much..xoxo..;0)..God bless u girl..

    • MusingsOnOther October 2, 2010 at 11:14 pm #

      My beautiful True Love! Hi, Mija! Thank you so so much for your support and kind words for the site and the post. The love goes right back to you, mi hermana. Siempre, xoxo K

  6. dano328 October 1, 2010 at 6:21 pm #

    Congrats on the move. From the little playing around with WordPress I have done, it seems much more robust. A year ago I didn’t know the actress from Twilight’s name. I had only a glance from one watch of the movie. I certainly thought she was pretty but had yet to hand her the keys and sign over my paycheck. Kristen grows on you, or she did me. I didn’t pay attention to anything that would be covered by the Hollywood press until this past spring when I had reached obsession level ORD. Then I start consuming any media where she was discussed. This time last year is probably about when I decided to overcome my pre-judgement of anything Twilight. I used a credit on audible dot com because I couldn’t find anything else to listen to. Within three weeks I was done with Breaking Dawn. Many months passed after that before I learned the magnitude of the Twilight fandom. Man, what an education.

    I really enjoyed your blog today, KJ. That’s an interesting story of what you were up to last year. I can’t think of anything to write about. But that’s fine. Before anyone read my blog, I would update sproradically. Then once it started getting read I asked “should I change?” and the consensus was no. I have a day job. I won’t make responding to pointless drama a source for topics. Neither do you, KJ. This seems to flow easily from you. Though I wouldn’t leave Kristen undefended, as if that would ever happen.

    Take care,


    • MusingsOnOther October 2, 2010 at 11:13 pm #

      Hi Dan! Thanks for popping by and checking out the new digs! I am indeed finding WP to be easier for me to navigate, though the prettiness is allll Buff. It’s been quite the year, hasn’t it? I know when I first discovered Kristen, I was immediately enthralled, but my admiration for her only grew as I observed her unwillingness to stray from being genuine and grounded. Yes, from what you’ve said before, and from what I witnessed in your brilliant musings on your own blog, you were nearly blind-sided by the intensity of the fandom, and you received quite the Twilight Education…You’ve handled it admirably, my friend. I know it can be overwhelming. I had a couple of years to ease into it, where as you were thrown into the deep end with floaties. Yes, we share the same philosophy on addressing (or in our case NOT addressing) the pointless fodder and undercurrent of ridiculous pettiness amongst discussion topics involving Kristen and Rob. We are defending Kristen in a way we know how: offensively, with optimism to counterbalance…Best wishes to you, and thanks again for your kindnesses. And thank you for doing what you do so excellently in this fandom. A big fan of yours, Always, KJ

  7. Savannah October 1, 2010 at 1:10 pm #

    WOW! Now here’s a wonderful start if ever I saw one! Your fabulous blog just got even more so.
    I do not blame you one iota for checking up on R/K while you were away, I spent much of my summer sans internet connection and took ANY oppurtunity to peek in. My boyfriend’s phone bill HATED me.
    We were (me a smalltown girl, who spent much of her first year at college crying with homesickness) making our way round America, Europe, Africa on student budgets.
    This time last year, I was fighting my way through university and longing for the end of the term. I was shy and stuck to my tight nucleus of friends/bf’s social circles. I was a closet/in denial R/K supporter. (my mantra of “I’m not a fan, I just LIKe looking at them/communities/blogs about them etc, soon wore thin)

    Now a year on I am luuuuurving uni, I can’t believe my life was ever NOT like this, and today I found out I’m taking on the role of Nellie Forbrush in a production of SouthPacific.
    Me, shy? WUT * – *

    I know this though, this time next year (all being well, and you continue) I’ll still be checking back here for my weekly wise words and inspiration.
    Love always,
    S x

    • MusingsOnOther October 2, 2010 at 11:01 pm #

      Hi Savannah! I’m so happy you came back and demonstrated that you indeed push through that timid part of you…and congrats on the role of Nellie, grrl, you must keep me updated on how it goes!! Thanks so much for your kind words re: Musings’ new site and the essay. Sounds like you’re a kindred wanderlust, and you and your bf’s phone bill are very aware of the byproducts of being a seeker of knowledge and an R/K fan. When you can, I’d love love love to hear some of your travel stories–I’m such a thirsty girl, I want to know everything about everywhere, and I love hearing other folks’ tales from the road. A pretty incredible year for you too, it sounds like. I applaud you on the strides you’ve made and I look forward to your check-ins hun. Much love and luck your way! Go get ’em, grrl! xo, KJ

  8. carolota October 1, 2010 at 12:33 pm #


    I love your new site and your musing mija ! Beautiful and Awesome
    I am so happy for you 🙂


    • MusingsOnOther October 2, 2010 at 10:37 pm #

      Hola, mija, mi hermana! Thank you so much for your lovely words and feedback on the new site and essay. You have always been the kindest, most enthusiastic supporter, and I don’t have words to convey my gratitude to you. I am so happy to know you, mi corazon, you make me smile so. Besos y abrazos, siempre. xo K

  9. DeeDreamer October 1, 2010 at 8:45 am #

    I am so very excited to see Musings’ new home! It’s lovely, KJ. It’s amazing what a difference a year makes. I’m constantly amazed at how my life has bloomed so distinctly since allowing myself the freedom to let the joy of my Kristen and Robert lovefest bubble to the surface without shame. I lack the words at the moment to fully express how much I love your weekly posts, your tweets, and just all things you. So this will have to suffice: Happy Housewarming, and THANK YOU for being such a lovely, kind aspect of this fandom. xoxo

    • MusingsOnOther October 2, 2010 at 10:35 pm #

      Hi Sweetie! Thank you so much for your kind words about the new site. You’ve been, from the beginning, one of Musings’ and my most vocal supporters, and I am forever grateful to you for that. Meeting lovely folks like you, and gazing at this new site reminds me how incredibly influential and powerful Kristen and Rob are in my life as well. I am always a little stunned when I realize how supporting them has enriched and enhanced my daily happenings. You have now given me TWO Housewarming Welcomes, and you simply spoil me so. I adore you muchly, my dear. THANK YOU! xo, KJ

  10. Bouffant September 30, 2010 at 10:43 pm #

    Mmmmm, I’m liking the feel of this new place… I didn’t know it could be better than it was at Blogger; but methinks you have scored a major upgrade my friend!

    Since CC put in her 2¢ up above, may I take a moment to say that it’s supercool that you two, owners and operators of the creme de la creme of Kristen fan sites, have found each other and made a love connection? That puts a big smile on my face!

    And I don’t know if we’ve ever talked about this… but Freaks & Geeks holds a special place in my heart. I fell for James as Daniel Desario, and have never really gotten up. I could look at his smile and listen to him talk about art and movies all day long.

    Somewhere over the rainbow, indeed… look where we are 😉


    • KStew is better than you October 2, 2010 at 9:35 pm #

      oh my precious bouffant, how you make me giggle. “operators of the creme de la creme of Kristen fan sites.” KJ is an academic. I’m an epidemic. There’s a difference. That being said, I count my lucky stars every day that KJ emailed me and told me that it was okay to be on the verge of death over your Master’s. Sometimes I think I should rip that piece of paper in half and send it to SanFran.

      I love Freeks & Geeks. In High School, we used to watch it in health. Those were the good old days.

      okay love you both!

      • MusingsOnOther October 2, 2010 at 10:14 pm #

        You know I’m quirking an eyebrow at you, don’t you, CC? I would try to be intimidating by middle-naming you, but I already do that on a near-daily basis, so I fear I’d be laughable, even moreso than I already am…And “epidemic”??? Well, epidemic in the sense of spreading, incorporating, influencing and OWNING masses of people, then YES. Yes, you are an epidemic. Don’t you DARE rip that Masters degree in half and send it to me. I’ll just send it right back, but framed in gold. YOU are GENIUS.

    • MusingsOnOther October 2, 2010 at 10:30 pm #

      Hi, B! I’m so glad you’re digging the new pad, the new vibe. I also feel that this has been a huge upgrade, and I’m so pleased you’re along for the journey.

      I also thank the Goddess for the meeting of CC, my soul sister. I was a fan of KSIBTU for many months, before I wrote her an email to commiserate and commend her on her Masters degree, and imagine my fangirl moment when she replied back so warmly and openly. Meeting CC was a blessing just like it was in meeting YOU, my dearest, and it all was possible because of Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson. Still bewilders me that I’ve encountered such incredible people simply because of the common admiration we have for two actors who are masters at their craft.

      Just nodding in complete agreement with your comment on James Franco and his Freeks & Geeks days. That show was just saturated in brilliance and Otherness…of course it transcends.

      Truly, a fantastic year, hmmm? So much love and gratitude to you, it’s almost creepy. xoxo, K

  11. teb September 30, 2010 at 9:59 pm #

    KJ, my friend, as a sister writer I am constantly amazed by your brilliant musings. You are truly an “other” in the writing realm. Your words evoke deep feelings and you have helped me to find and truly embrace my “other” that I have always been. Thank you so much for that.

    A year ago I was much like you. I found myself on-line doing research to help friends whose business was fortunate enough to play a role in Twilight forever. What I found were two young film actors whose story was even more amazing than I had realized. I considered myself jaded from working in a similar industry for many years. Yet I too became so intrigued by this amazing couple whose personal connection seemed to far outweigh the romance of their screen characters. I grew to respect these two as more than just talented actors, but more importantly as two people who dare to be who they really are in an industry that defies that very idea.

    Now, one year later, I find myself thankful to Rob and Kristen for the gift of their wonderful talents and for showing us their love while continuing to keep it real for themselves. Most of all, I thankful to them for their amazing story, for without it I wouldn’t have met the wonderful group of friends I now have, my other sisters.

    • MusingsOnOther October 2, 2010 at 10:24 pm #

      Tebby, the girl who first reminded me of my name and power, literally and figuratively: thank you. I am honored and humbled when a gifted writer and pioneer such as your self bestows kind words upon me and my ramblings. I too, take a moment each and every day to pay homage to the inspirational paths that Rob and Kristen take in the name of authenticity and joy. Amazing role models indeed. They have led me to a wonderful group of strong, witty, brilliant friends (lookin’ at you, kiddo) and remind me to embrace my Otherness. Congratulations to you also, my friend, for going forth with your own incredible endeavors. Much love..xo, KJ

  12. Jessica September 30, 2010 at 8:10 pm #

    Congratulations to you KJ, this is an incredible new home for Musings and I’ve said it before, but I’ll say it again, the collaboration between you, CC and Buff produces unbelievable results! This week’s Musings are wonderful and got me really thinking about all of the changes that have happened in my life over the past year. The time has literally flown. Last year I was sending my darling daughter off to her first year of preschool and reveling in my newfound luxury called “me time.” Almost exactly a year ago I was in Napa for an extended weekend with my hubby and enjoying the simple things together, like a delicious glass of wine, the beauty of nature and shared laughter. It was so fantastic we are making it a yearly journey. I’ve learned a lot about myself this past year, I discovered how resilient I truly am, and I’ve made some amazing friendships and traveled to exciting places, nurturing myself while never losing sight of my first priority: my family. I was just as obsessed with R and K then as I am now and I’m thankful to be blessed with a hubby who, even though he may not always get it, listens to me go on and on extolling their virtues and never tires of it!
    Thank you for your Musings. They are always one of the very best parts of my week. 🙂
    Much love to you.

    • MusingsOnOther October 2, 2010 at 10:20 pm #

      Hello my friend Jessa! Thank you so much for stopping by and giving thoughtful feedback on the site and the essay. Your words, as always are too too kind. I am a big celebrator of growth and acknowledgment of resiliency, and I am rejoicing with you as you discover yours. Thank goodness for supportive husbands and friends who give us wide berth to explore and express our love for K & R as we do, or at the very least, give us the side-eye, but wisely, do not infringe on our adoration. Take care of yourself and best wishes as you continue to nurture your self and your family. xo, KJ

  13. KStew is better than you September 30, 2010 at 6:14 pm #


    One big, fat MAZEL TOV to you for taking the plunge! It’s like you had that little trick up your sleeve to truly “own it” and it must feel so good! Well, you own your own little practice’s website too, so I guess you’re better than me. Regardless: CONGRATULATIONS MY SOUL SISTER!

    A year ago… my word what a world of difference a year makes. A year ago I was reading gossip (not unlike you), and wondering how to get in touch with the SANE portion of this fandom. Sometimes I wonder what the hell I’m doing. Actually, I wonder that about 30 times a day. The point being, last year I had a plan. I was in school. I was getting my MA. I was living in another state. I had a routine. Now, one year later, nothing is as I would’ve thought–and here I am–writing a blog and corresponding with some of the most powerful women I’ve ever had the pleasure to meet.

    The best part is, I have been inspired daily by all of you. The wit. The humor. The intelligence. The ability to take a day and make the best of it. The support–omgAD the support. People underestimate the brilliance of this fandom, something I wholeheartedly detest. Very educated, very empowered women. I love it.

    So a year ago I had a plan. I didn’t follow my plan at all.

    And I’m okay with that. I’m excited, for the first time in a long time, and I want to do something. You know? of course you know. And a lot of that I have to attribute to YOU. And to all the lovely women of the KSIBTU Crew and beyond.


    ima kiss you all ovah your face in 35 days!

    • musingsonother October 1, 2010 at 11:24 am #

      My dear Soul Sister::::

      Ima gonna LET you kiss me all ovah my face in 34 days!!! November is gonna be EPIC! So, firstly…there is no way I am better than YOU. None. You, my dear, transcend all. That is where I’ll leave it. Secondly, yes, a year (a month, a day, a week) can be incredibly life altering and impacting, absolutely! I did not have a plan, but I was formulating one. I knew I was restless and unhappy, and I knew I had to change that. Yes, when I floated between entertainment sites last year, I, too, sought the reasonable, SANE fans and was knocked senseless a few times with some of the pathologies out there. That’s why I wanted to create Musings in the first place, to counteract, balance some of the negativity out there. You were the pioneer in creating a site that did not address the hate but only encouraged the joy and laughter. And now YOU, among a group of brilliant, empowered, witty women have become a source of constant inspiration. I didn’t know you a year ago, but oh my goodness how you’ve rocked me since we have converged. You always were en route to your bliss, sweets, even when you felt you fell off course or didn’t follow your plan. You had to complete the tasks you had at hand before stepping forward to take what you want today…It’ll be glorious to watch. Luff You. I’m gonna squeeze you and not let go next month when I see you. xo

  14. Justice September 30, 2010 at 5:24 pm #

    *curls up on Queen Other couch with hot coffee*

    It’s nice here! I like it! It’s all pretty and you own it! Brava sister, brava!

    A year ago I had just started my new job and was getting my life back on track. What an amazing 12 months it has been.

    I was also *cough* just beginning to acknowledge my worshipping of Rob & Kristen.

    Thank you as always for your musings.

    Justice xo

    • musingsonother October 1, 2010 at 11:27 am #

      Dear Possum,
      I can’t believe I didn’t know you a year ago. It feels like we’ve been sisters, possum besties forevah. You are inspiring, kind, brilliant, witty and in ways I can’t articulate just yet, a major MUSE for me and for the inception of Musings. Not to mention, you deal the best crack. A year ago, you were getting your life back on track. As was I. Amazing and illuminating the past 12 months have been. Thank you for unwavering support and encouragement of me and of my projects. You’ve been there since the beginning. I adore you. xo, K (or in your lovely accent: KAI)

  15. buff82 September 30, 2010 at 4:59 pm #

    Wonderful words as always. It was my pleasure to help, I appreciate what you do here and was happy to be a part of it!! ♥ B

    • musingsonother September 30, 2010 at 10:57 pm #

      Buff, you are my love and my Queen. A year ago, I didn’t know YOU! How is this possible? And now, well, now, you put up with my wonk with more grace and patience than I think anyone ever has. You bring whatever projects you’re involved in, to another level. I am honored by your friendship and blessed by your gifts. xo ♥ K

      • buff82 October 1, 2010 at 12:22 pm #

        Your words are always too kind. I was remiss in not answering your question, so allow me. A year ago Photoshop wasn’t even in my vocabulary, let alone uploaded on my computer – I had no clue how to use it. I was just about to venture into the writing side of fanfic and was terrified. I was a lurker more than a participant, and hadn’t really reached out to anyone. And well, now everything is completely different. I am thankful for you ladies I have met, for dusting off the path and showing me the road that lay beneath. I have branched out and done things I never would have because of that and I am forever grateful. ♥ B

  16. Mel452 September 30, 2010 at 4:47 pm #

    Gorgeous layout darl. 🙂

    Not good to hear that you experienced an earthquake like that in Bali…but can totally relate to being on holidays and still taking time out to see what is happening in the world relating to Rob and Kristen…its an illness which undoubtably none of us want to cure…hehe!

    I was in Europe last May and clocked up an incredible bill being on the web via my lil iPhone whilst I was on the beach sunning myself. Very bad!!

    Sept 09 was a big month for me in the world of Twilight. Finally got into the whole online fandom community. Through that have met some incredible people. I have even met them face to face through my travels overseas and in Australia (my home) and call some of them my best friends now, even though geography separates us. It never ceases to surprise me now how great the Twilight fandom is…and even more so, its spin-offs for Kristen and Rob.

    As for the mullet hehe…I loved it. 🙂

    James Franco ❤

    Fi, there's nothing like a bit of fangirling over Rob and/or Kristen to make a day better. 🙂

    PS, seriously if some of my friends outside of this fandom heard me say that they would think I'm insane! Ppl need to need to be happy for people in whatever makes them happy. Rant over.

    • musingsonother October 1, 2010 at 11:15 am #

      hey sweet girl, thank you so much for dropping by and commenting on the new site and checking out the new essay. It is pretty incredible to review the people who have come into our lives as a result of supporting Rob and Kristen, isn’t it? I have had a similar experience in that the people I’ve met through this fandom are now considered good friends, great friends now. There are strong, brilliant and empowered people in this fandom! It’s nice to see that when things get a bit rough out there. Be well, sweets, and I hear ya about the ridiculous cell bills! xo

  17. nail September 30, 2010 at 4:31 pm #

    WOW, love the new home K and HOLY MOLY, i never realized how much James Franco looks like James Dean. it is always amazing how much things can change in a year and sometimes in a day…see you in the neighborhood.

    • musingsonother October 1, 2010 at 11:05 am #

      Hiya Nail, my sweet! Thanks for being the steadfast supporter and brilliant girl you have always been, from the beginning… James Franco DOES look like James Dean and it’s startling and a little drool-inducing, I must say. A year, a month, a day, an hour…lots of changes indeed, but it’s how we roll with it and what we do with it I guess. Thanks for always staying classy and witty thru it all. See you in the hood.. xx

  18. marble pole :) September 30, 2010 at 4:27 pm #

    KJ, another great spot on Musing! Gah, could I love you more?I think NOT! The new “home” is lovely! I say we celebrate with a road trip. *finger-gun salute* XOXO

    • musingsonother September 30, 2010 at 11:06 pm #

      There’s my OTR Bestie! Could I Love YOU more? Uh, noooo. Thanks for stopping by and checking out the new digs. We definitely need to celebrate with a Road Trip! I’ll keep an eye on the speedometer (I got my fine in the mail today from our last trip, bb), but we both can have our cowboy hats! *double finger-gun salute back atcha* xoxo

  19. Fi September 30, 2010 at 3:49 pm #

    P.S. The new digs look AMAZING! Well done to all involved ❤

  20. Fi September 30, 2010 at 3:48 pm #

    aw KJ, its been forever since I’ve sat down and commented/replied to one of your amazing musings. I read all of them but as in many aspects of my life, I find myself shying away from speaking. Something which I’m working on, but it is a slow battle.

    Your essay made me cry. Not the first, not the last, of that I’m sure. It warms me to hear about your journey this past year and your reflection on where you were a year ago vs where you find yourself now. Scratch that, it doesn’t just warm me, it gives me HOPE. I’m in a weird sort of limbo right now on many fronts but I hope in a year I’ll be able to reflect and feel positive.

    Franco has been one of my dearest favs for many years now. I was so excited when he was announced as the commencement speaker for UCLA as I was attending to support friends and was stoked to hear him speak. But alas he withdrew (or was he withdrawn by another, more “powerful” entity? i don’t know) and my heart was saddened. Luckily he did the Funny or Die spoof and I laughed til I cried. He’s enigmatic, gifted, and so many other things I can’t articulate. I’m glad you profiled him today 🙂

    Ah.. where was I a year ago? Honestly I was grappling with newly remembered abuse/trauma from my childhood. I don’t know much about repressed memories, but I know that the things I remembered tumbled out of no where; blinding & crushing me. Deep down I knew I hadn’t ever forgotten it – I’d simply locked it away. I didn’t tell anyone for months. Instead I just sort of existed, attempting to start what I thought would be my last year of uni. I immersed myself in all things Kristen and Robert. Seeing them, learning about them, fangirling over them, lurking on blogs, reading twi-fanfic, etc.. all of it was an important daily lift for my spirits. I mostly kept my growing fascination to myself (and still do)… my friends more or less detest twilight, and are prone to snarking (or being outright mean) about Kristen & Robert. I also am intimidated by the people I’d like to strike up conversations with, that share my love and respect for both of them. But that’s a whole barrel of monkeys.

    Which brings me to another Thank You to YOU, you darling amazing woman. I’m more grateful for your simple kindness & eloquent words, than I could ever express.

    • musingsonother September 30, 2010 at 11:04 pm #

      Hi, Fi! *Waves, brushes tears from your cheeks* Darlin, I will always remember you as one of the first people to reach out to me and say hello, and put yourself out there when Musings first began. I’m so glad you challenged yourself then and are continuing to nurture and embrace your courage to speak up now. I understand the frustration and exhaustion of being in limbo. I could go into the crippling depression I felt around November of last year. It certainly has taken time, but we heal at different rates. Having to confront past traumas, especially on or around anniversaries and holidays can be brutal. So it sounds like Robert & Kristen were integral parts of your process towards awareness thus healing…They are pretty magical that way, aren’t they? You can always always come here to share your love for them, expressing as little or as much as you feel comfortable. I’m happy you’re around. Thank YOU my friend for your kindnesses and constant support. Always, xo, K

  21. Julie September 30, 2010 at 3:46 pm #

    K, This is just amazing! I’m SO proud of you and how far you have come within the last year. There is so much excitement & beauty coming your way. Your Musings always leave me smiling…..and I really like to smile. Thank you!

    • musingsonother September 30, 2010 at 8:55 pm #

      Thank you my darling Constant. Its been quite the year indeed, for all of us! You’ve been one of my biggest supporters and from day one, and I absolutely adore you. Thank you for your feedback and your kind words. I know you like to smile, I’m glad I can help bring yours out. xoxo

  22. Cheermom September 30, 2010 at 3:45 pm #

    KJ — One word…Beautiful…the new site, today’s musing, and the featured rebel…just perfect! I was LMAO at your story about you in Bali…searching for Rob and Kris information!! I did the same thing…every night…from a bar with Wifi on my cruise! You are so not alone baby!!! xoxoxo

    • musingsonother September 30, 2010 at 8:54 pm #

      Look! I can comment properly on this site now! W00t! Hiya darliln. Thank you so much for checking out the new digs. I knew you would understand my plight when I needed to access news about Kristen and Rob even though there was a Tsunami warning and I was in the pristinely beautiful paradise of Bali…It really wasn’t thatbad, I was busy exploring and trying to stay cool in the 110 degree heat more than anything. But at night, when I had wifi connection at the hotel, I’d check for K&R news first before my own emails. Truth. I admit it. Love you, honey. Thanks for your kind words…xoxo

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