The Risks and Benefits of Expression & Introspection

10 Mar

“To live a creative life, we must lose our fear of being wrong.” ~Joseph Chilton Pearce

Greetings, my fellow Majestic Misfits! Before I dive into this week’s essay, I wanted to mention a couple things. Firstly, please accept my apologies since I did not post this weekend as I had hoped to and even purported that I would. Some of you know that I’m recovering from a 3-week long flu-bronchial something-or-other and I’m still dodging bouts of tiredness, especially since I’m back in full-force trying to build a clientele for my tiny psychotherapy practice. I’ve decided that I’m not going to give such explicit statements such as: “Musings will post this weekend”. Instead, I’ll rely on the posting schedule I have always had…Thursdays are meant for updates, whether weekly or bi-weekly. However,  if something comes up, I’ll let you know, as I have lately, when I’m running behind or if I need more time (like today). Cool beans?

Secondly,  a sweet friend *waves at @JRollin5* advised me last week that because she catches MOO updates on her phone, she doesn’t benefit from the music playlist each week. In fact, she didn’t know that there was a playlist! I may have to release Volume 2 of the MOO Mixed-Tape Love Letter soon here, because oh mah gah, if anything has been present these past weeks, its been THE MUSIC! A few of you have asked me what influences the playlists for each week, and my answer is: these songs are either connected to the Featured Royal Rebel or the theme for the week–often times, both. I listen to the same playlist while I’m writing the essay and I find the songs often inform the tone of the whole post. Plus, our Reigning Other Queen Kristen reports music as essential, and her musical sensibility is genius. And we celebrate Kristen’s sensibilities here in Otherland, so….

Then there’s this: *cue soaring heart*

The Fairest of The Fair

Perfect segue into the check-in with our Royal Beauties. Last week was a glorious week for those of us keeping an eye on the happenings of a certain pretty, Rebellious Partnership, yes? In last week’s Muselet, we were still acclimatizing to the newly released Vanity Fair in which Rob posed for legendary photographer Annie Liebovitz. While the pictures were beautiful (awaiting more OUTTAKES , pleeeeease!) the interview portion, though not including any unknown information, left me feeling unsettled and wistful. I also felt the “journalist” who conducted the interview (allowing for faulty “facts”) operated with an agenda. She even asked the tired and unoriginal question pertaining to his relationship with our Other Queen, Kristen, after she wrote a sneering paragraph scoffing at other interviewers who have tried to obtain the same information (“Oprah couldn’t even get it out of them”). Well, her exclusivity-seeking fell short, and when she showed up on something like seven Entertainment News shows hooking interest about Rob’s non-denial denial she revealed to me just one more person clamoring for a piece of the magic. The very folks that Rob and Kristen need protection from.

Well, opportunistic writers aside, luckily there were other bright spots in our Rebel Royals’ week. Rob still shared a glimpse into his insatiable thirst for knowledge as well as his personal experience of living under a microscope.  And we were reminded that his new movie is going to be …well, gorgeous. Gorgeous in all ways: cinematography, set design, costumes and story. I am still trying to pick myself up from the floor where I had fallen due to the new Water For Elephants screen caps and the official trailer for the movie: Water For Elephants International Trailer Holy Jeebus. Distract me, distract me!!!

Its not even funny anymore. I flatlined weeks ago.

Now let us please, please, pretty please talk about our Majestic Kristen’s spectacular news of the week shall we??  After months of speculation and weeks of the curiosity operating at a fever pitch, it was announced by the film’s producer that our own Majestic Misfit Kristen Stewart is going to play a Rebel Royal Original, Snow White, in the movie Snow White and the Huntsman opposite the insanely beautiful Other Rebels Viggo Mortensen and Charlize Theron. People may have been skeptical. I am not one of those people. I screamed in delight when I heard Kristen was considering the role of Snow. Ok if it is too hard for you to envision, let’s break it down:

One extraordinarily beautiful girl:

Who is known across the land as being kind and compassionate. Also known to be an animal lover and a bit of a goddess in the kitchen. Loquat Pie anyone?

She’s next in line for the throne (there’s your Royalty), but she has many, many detractors and critics fueled by jealousy and insecurity. Members of her own family send henchmen after her for Goddess’s sake! Forced to hit the road and kick some ass (not to mention defy the age-old gender stereotypes of the hapless, helpless woman awaiting rescue), all while sporting fierce fashion wear? She ain’t your grandmammy’s Damsel-In-Distress, yo. Who ELSE could portray such a Rebellious Beauty? No One. This Is KRISTEN’S ROLE.  In this medium, our Queen of Unconventional Beauty will model for a new generation what it means to defy decrepit gender roles and also respond to the women-against-women destruction in our society and in this fandom. On your knees, kids. Bow down to what could potentially be a great thing.

Risks & Benefits

“If you want to work on your art, work on your life” ~Chekhov

Kristen is reportedly fielding numerous incredible projects, unsurprisingly. Her reputation for professionalism and the brilliant embodiment of the characters she plays (Read: The Runaways,The Cake Eaters) is paving the way for what could be an astoundingly deft and unique career, not to mention one of longevity. Her confidence and focus on piecing together her career plan is not lost on her partner Robert. He admires her propensity towards clever role choices, and also exudes the sense that he is testing the waters for his own path. Which is normal and expected. He’s only 24 for goodness sake. Typical twenty-four year olds are just outside of completing college or are experiencing the glories of jobs and internships. Rob and Kristen have been handed cash and fame and are being hailed as having “hit it big”, but they’re not even a quarter of a century old. It’s a lot of pressure. Knowing and pursuing what “we want to do” is stressful (even when it’s a good stress, stress is still stress), daunting and potentially disheartening. I sense a little overwhelmed-ness from Rob when I read that VF article. These very valid feelings could be there for him, but I still am wary of the VF interviewer’s not-exactly-supportive influence on the story. Regardless, I understand those feelings well.  And in questioning my career path and goal for this world, I recognize there is the risk of discovering I am not exactly happy or actually doing what I had initially set out to accomplish.

I just need a moment of quiet...

Luckily, Rob is blessed with several gifts and he has the capacity to explore many avenues in which he can utilize them. He is granted versatility and really, opportunity to soar. He could be a musician, songwriter, movie producer, screenplay writer, and he has dabbled in all of these fields already. But for him to declare aloud that he feels limited to representing a sparkling vampire for the next ten years indicates he’s aware of the long-term effects prompted by his particular profession, and he’s questioning these effects. Is it enough to discourage him from exploring his other talents? I hope not. I hope he pushes forward and pursues all of his interests, refusing to be pigeonholed.

Yesterday I met with a new client for an assessment appointment at the Magical  (though flailing, is still magical in its intent) Little Practice. One of the forms, among the confidentiality agreement and consent for treatment forms discussed in an intake appointment, is a form outlining the Benefits and Risks of Therapy. This concept, of the risks involved with introspection and discovery serves as a cautionary moment. Because, as the Chekhov quote above notes: we must do the work that comes with living authentically, creatively, expressively. Work on art, work on life. And it might not always be pretty.

Have you found this to be true? When you decide to participate in inquiry and introspection (whether it be to look for a new job, pick up a new hobby, start a new relationship, or start receiving therapeutic support), and specifically self-improvement and career aspirations, do you feel that rush of reactions? Excitement for the adventure; or, anxiety and grief in stepping away from the familiar; joy at exploring a new project?  Are loved ones in your life discouraging your leap of faith or change in direction? Or are they cheering you on with well-wishes of, “do whatcha gotta do, brother” ? The point is, not all feelings and emotions in reactions to a confrontation of uncertainties of goals are pleasant. I tell clients that as they embark on their journey of self-reflection and mental health improvement that it often gets darker before the sunrise. It can be intimidating to look in the mirror. Introspective folks might experience feelings of resistance (which is synonymous with fear) and may employ all sorts of creative strategies to sabotage our own plans.

I find myself in an interesting position these days. I am re-evaluating and gathering courage to jump back into the job market after a near-two-year hiatus. “WHAT??” You may screech.Wellllll…I have’t been able to sit down with my musical engineer to record the demo I had planned for last fall. But I have become a small business owner and tried my hand at becoming an independent practitioner as a therapist despite the abysmal state of this economy and the stigma attached to mental health improvement. But  for one, it’s a tedious, time-consuming process to build regular clientele who are willing to talk about their emotions (quirks eyebrow. I get that), and for another,  people don’t have any money to pay for services. Suffice to say, my little practice is on the verge of extinction, six months after opening day, and I still need to pay rent, and buy all the Top Ramen N and I consume for sustenance. While N is flourishing at work and fast-becoming the It Boy in his restaurant chain, I am a handful of weeks away from discontinued unemployment checks. Bottom line: This Other-Queen-In-Training has gots to get herself a J-O-B.  At least until the practice picks up steam, or until HRH Kristen contacts me and takes me up on my offer to help build the Halfway House Network…

Oh there is resistance, my friends. There is a cannonball sitting in my tummy. I am unsure. I have faith I can move forward but I also feel the fear. I have identified myself for the last decade as a psychotherapist who whole-heartedly pursued the requirements to become so. But after the disillusionment of BastardNation, I lack the confidence and desire to return to the corporate world. Fortunately, I, like Rob and Kristen, have been blessed with aptitude in a few areas: I can teach, I can create and perform music, I can babble and type these ramblings out to share with you kind folks…but can I do something with these skills? Am I brave enough to do something about it? After numerous pep talks via friends from around the world (Countless gratitude to @Kate_Suena in Canada, and my Aussie Besties @Ophelia2010 & @Justice_Aussie, along with my Cyber Sisters) I feel that I can. But…not gonna lie, you guys, there could be a resurgence of EMO-KJ with all these warring reactions of joy, exhilaration, frustration and insecurity. But perhaps I can look forward to donning a new work uniform soon?

Let the healing...begin.

Featured Royal Rebel: Helena Bonham Carter

While I’m not exactly speaking about reinvention, I have no problem encouraging it. At the very least embrace the idea that your uniqueness and colorful choices on career, clothes and the people you choose to surround yourself with can be your defining characteristic…Like this gorgeous Rebel. British actress Helena Bonham Carter, or HBC as I’ll refer to her occasionally, is the pinnacle of interesting and unconventional. And she does not care how she is perceived. She does not care how odd or unusual she presents, and perhaps that’s why we remember her…revere her…adore her.  We know her as a Queen already, on so many levels, and in many of her film roles (Lady Jane Grey, Queen Elizabeth, Queen of Hearts). It’s only natural that she’s featured on Musings’ Other Homecoming Court.

Helen’s first brush with acting occurred when she was sixteen years old, performing in a television commercial. She reports no formal acting training. She began her career when she entered herself in the British Acting Directory Spotlight with her winnings received from a writing contest. As she has stunning charisma, it is not surprising that Helena comes from a family of a prominent political background. HBC’s paternal great-grandfather H.H. Asquith was Prime Minister of the U.K. (1908-1916)  and her paternal grandmother Violet Bonham Carter was a famed political orator. Helena’s mother’s lineage is also impressive: her maternal grandfather was a Spanish Diplomat who was recognized as Righteous Among Nations for rescuing thousands of Jews from the Holocaust during the Second World War, her maternal grandmother was a Baroness and her great-aunt was a famous French Philanthropist. Her great-uncle, Anthony Asquith is Hollywood Royalty: he was the director of the films Pygmalion and The Importance of Being Ernest. Truly she’s a Royal who defies convention, the epitome of Royal Rebelliousness.

Her royal blood lines might not be as well-known to this generation, because we’re already preoccupied with her rule on film screens. An actress since the mid-1980’s HBC has appeared in over 60 films and made almost 30 film, television and radio appearances. The ingenuity by which she’s crafted her long and respected career cannot be denied. She has portrayed several twentieth-century “corset queens” beginning with her roles in Lady Jane GreyWings of The Dove (For which she earned an Oscar nomination along with SAG, Golden Globe and BAFTA nods)  and Howard’s End. But her remarkable versatility is what resonates strongest with her admirers. She has played Don Johnson’s girlfriend on the 80’s iconic TV classic Miami Vice, as well as Queen Elizabeth in the her most recent success, in the sublime and inspirational The Kings Speech (for which she was nominated for her second Academy Award, and for which she won a BAFTA). Somewhere in between those roles she has participated in such memorable films like A Room With A View, Twelfth Night, Fight Club, Frankenstein, Mighty Aphrodite, Harry Potter Movies 4 through 7, and four of her partner Tim Burton (And fellow Majestic Misfit)’s films including: the surreal (and my fave) Big Fish and the awesome Sweeney Todd.  HBC’s mother Elena is a psychotherapist (*fist pump in solidarity!*) and Helena has paid (and may still) pay her mother to review scripts with Helena to uncover the “psychological motivation behind a character” before she decides to take a role.

In 2009, HBC was named in the  Times’ as one of the Top 10 British Actresses of All Time . Not too shabby, eh? Perhaps the fact that she can wear mis-matched shoes and constantly top fashion magazines ‘WORST Dressed’ List is meant to truly illustrate how this talented, cool, unaffected beauty embodies Rebel Royalty at its finest. She has reported often that she is tired of the labels as “Prim Edwardian” and instead wants to “shock people out of it”. I simply adore her insistence on living her life her way, despite cautionary advise or the blue blood lineage. She doesn’t match shoes when on the red carpet. She hasn’t married her long-time partner Tim Burton, and she does not live in the same home with him, even though they have been a couple for ten years and have two children together. Instead she and Burton live in adjacent residences, connected by a hallway. Awesomesauce.

Offenses of Otherness:

Successfully balances independent projects with blockbusters.

Does not adhere to industry standards of “fashion”. She creates her own.

“I’m the kind of actor who has ventured into escaping from me.”

Ahhh well, we’re wrapping up today’s Musings on the risks and benefits of taking the leap towards introspection and reinvention. Rob became a little introspective in his Vanity Fair interview and it could possibly be the key to his liberation. Kristen, our Reigning Other Queen knows she wants to be an actress and the film projects funneling her way imply, at least to me, the potential for Greatness, despite the fact that she’s taking on yet another iconic role of which she will single-handedly redefine the antiquated standards attached to it. Pfft. She can do it for a Disney character. She schools us on how to question and pursue change daily.

Reigning Other Queen: Kristen Stewart

She’s back in Vancouver with her friends and colleagues from the Twilight Saga, and even though she has HottieBodyGuard and Agent Security Blanket John, she is proving day in and out how stealthy she can be. Her focus, as Robert says, is on her career trajectory as an actress, as it should be, because girlfriend is goood at her job. She reports knowing she wanted to be in the business ever since she was a little girl, growing up on sets where her parents (TV producer father, screenwriter-director mother) worked. Our Reigning Queen has the ability, like our Featured Rebel HBC, to lose herself in a character, becoming almost unrecognizable. We did not see a trace of our Valley-girl KStew beneath the heavy eye liner or shoulder pads in The Runaways. Nor did we see her in the battered but resilient Mallory of Welcome to The Rileys. However, if our girl wants to write or produce or compose screenplays, as she has said in the past she’d like to try, I can’t see anything holding her back from exploring those avenues as well. Her ability to be versatile, open and courageous reminds me that there is possibility for longevity and fulfillment in anything.

Offenses of Otherness:

Does not desire celebrity nor fame.

She does not adhere to industry standards for “fashion”. She creates her own.

“When I go onstage to accept an award, they think I’m nervous, uncomfortable, and awkward—and I am—but those are bad words for them.”

All right my lovelies….We talked about the beautiful stills and trailer from Water For Elephants and about the fantastic news that our Queen Kristen will actually be Queen-in-training Snow White on the big screen. We talked a little about the beauty of versatility and the courage to question ourselves and our paths. We talked about job hunting (which I don’t think Kristen nor Rob nor HBC will struggle with) and the resulting emotions that come from doing the introspective, clarifying work…emotions of elation, as well as melancholy and irritability. But that’s ok, whatever it is, however it presents itself. We all still hold our spots on the Homecoming Court for Otherness.

Helena is Other.

Kristen is Other.

Others realize that to work on their art, they work on their lives.

Embrace your Other.

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QUESTION: How has it been for you to embark on new journeys? Have you met resistance? If so, from whom?

A/N: Thanks to JRollin5, MyCleverAlias, Possum Besties Jai and Aai, and my CyberSisters Bellsy and Cheermom and to the always present and brilliant Bouffant. Thanks to Katie for hooking me up with texting abilities. Thanks to my family Puss and Monkey for taking me to the museum  to see the butterflies and the piranhas (in the A-Ma-ZON).

Sending love and light to friends struggling this week: EACNM, BELLSY-BAI, LISA, CHEERMOM…and my dear IRIS ADRIENNE.

I donated to two fandom charities this week for causes near and dear to my heart. Wont you join me?

FandomsFightTheFloods and the charity Take Back The Night through the Fandom For Awareness Against Sexual Assault.

Next week I hope to contribute to the Fandom Against Domestic Violence and Fandom Fights Mental Illness.

See you next time, loves. xo, KJ

15 Responses to “The Risks and Benefits of Expression & Introspection”

  1. Yumebi April 25, 2014 at 4:13 am #

    I have only read this now, 3 years later, as I was doing research on a film on Elizabeth Taylor starring Helena B. Carter.
    I really enjoyed reading this and I love the way you write.
    I simply adore all of the roles Helena has played. The Queen of Hearts must have been marvellous to act ♥
    Still, I just cannot agree with you on the matter of Kristen, I guess I will never be a fan. It is likely that she is a great person, but I do not like vampires, have never read the Twilight-series and I don’t find it aesthetic to look so dazed all the time.
    She’s just not my cup of tea, sorry X(

    I enjoyed Water for Elephants very much, such great acting.♥♥♥

  2. pharmgirl15 March 21, 2011 at 4:34 pm #

    I think I am about a week or so late to the party on this Musing, but it was quite good and I wanted to leave some love. Ugh… I remember so many years of doubting the path I was on! Through my first 4 years of college I struggled a bit in my required classes for pharmacy school. (Even had to retake a class!)I kept wondering if I was cut out to be a pharmacist….if I could even get in to a school… dark days. Despite getting into school, and finding my dream job right out of school I don’t think reflection ends, even when you find your dream profession/path. I am constantly evaluating myself and how I can be happier professionally! What new avenues I could explore to benefit both myself and my patients… Hehe- I think I am better at taking risks and evaluating my PROFESSIONAL life than my personal life (sigh- maybe someday I will follow my friends’ advice to get on the to increase my dating pool…)- I think I need to think about WHY it is easier for me to be bolder in my professional realm than personal….musings for my own journal I guess!
    Best wishes to you KJ as you discover your next path!

  3. Crystal March 20, 2011 at 10:24 am #

    Oh KJ – this post could not have come at a more appropriate time for me. I hear you. Seriously. I HEAR YOU. Lately, as I’m sure you might have witnessed on Twitter exchanges between Kate and I regarding it, I have been seriously considering moving out west to Vancouver. As much as I love my job, I can’t be passionate in it and I can’t be creative and this kills me on a regular basis. I know everyone it seems in this city, so I’m starting to feel I’ll be single forever if I stay. I just, I need more and I need to experience life in the West Coast. My mother did the same thing at my age. She told my father she needed time and that he needed to let her go. She moved across the country, worked, dated, had the time of her life. She learned, she experienced a new world, she will tell you it was the best thing she ever did. I KNOW I have the innate urge to move to Vancouver because of her and when we were in Vancouver twice on our way to and from Hawaii, I realized; I think I need to do this.

    You nailed the emotions perfectly. There’s excitement at the thought of new adventures and new possibilities. But there is also fear of failure, of regret, of rushing into this. It’s VERY overwhelming and I guess at this point, time will tell!!

    Please know i’m thinking of YOU as you go through the struggles with the magical little practice. I believe in you whatever path you take and I know I don’t stand alone in that thought. You are an incredible talented, STRONG, woman and you will succeed.

    Sending much love xx

  4. Aai March 14, 2011 at 4:57 pm #

    Here I am! Better late than never!

    love love love HBC! Amazing we were both on the same page at the same time last week!!

    run off my feet and typing one handed so i’m gonna sign off possum – but congrats on another fabo MOO, and look forward to next week’s.

    remember chin up- eyes forward- one foot in front of the rolls forward and you are more than worthy of keeping up with it, or even out running it!
    Flove ya!

  5. robkris13 March 11, 2011 at 10:10 pm #

    oh yes sweet sister…I met resistance from everyone in my family and all my friends when I revealed my dreams. Not one person supported me or thought I would ever succeed. The more they said “you’ll never be able to do it” the more I KNEW I could. I like to think my guardian angels were there supporting me and held the door open as I walked through to meet my destiny!

    And may I say dear friend…I hope you embrace the music one day!

  6. ladybug March 11, 2011 at 1:50 pm #

    Once again I’m floored by your post. Once again it feels like you know exactly what I need the read.

    See this week I kind of had “a moment”: I’m pretty sure I now know what my next step is going to be. It involves going back to college for a completely new degree. It will be a long time and an expensive ride before I’m done, but I have a purpose! Let’s just say it’s been a while since I felt like I had one. So yes, I would say that trying to find your way and changing your life is very hard and emotional! You are a beautiful human being and I’m sure everything will turn out just fine, you not only work towards it but you really deserve it.

    And on this very day when we got a big dose of perspective it feels really good to know you’re doing your best to be the best self you can be and help others along the way.

    VF outtakes and WFE International Trailer – I have no words and that’s saying something because I can’t ever shut up (as you can tell by th lenght of my comments.)

    I’m over the moon with the Snow White confirmation! It’s a great take on the role and I think Kristen is going to be amazin in it!

    Oh I was going to mention this the other day and then I forgot, I can never listen to the playlist because it won’t play in my country! *sadpanda*

    PS: I hope this comment makes sense. I wrote in intervals between babysitting 2yo brother and hiding the laptop from him!

  7. L March 11, 2011 at 1:46 pm #

    Lovely as always, KJ. Feel better and pray for me because I am so going to need it soon.



  8. Jessica Winkle March 11, 2011 at 1:26 pm #

    oh yeah, and KStew as Snow White…zomg, YES PLEASE! Cannot.Wait for this!

  9. DeeDreamer March 11, 2011 at 1:25 pm #

    Beautiful, inspiring post, KJ. <3333 Thank you for always sharing your unique perspective and for your uncanny ability to bring a smile to my face and a quiet moment of reflection with each and every essay. xo ~DD

  10. JRollin5 March 11, 2011 at 12:21 pm #

    Oh KJ! I feel like a celebrity being mentioned in MOO this week! *pause for fangirl squeeee* Excellent playlist again this week and what a wonderful post, as always mah dear. You are such an inspiration. I know I always say that, but it’s true. It is clear from the post that you have MANY amazing talents… We are lucky that you share some of YOU, with us. <333 Good luck with the job hunt!!

    • MyCleverAlias March 11, 2011 at 2:04 pm #

      Yes! To everything she said, but especially the shout-out. I felt like a rock star, too. 🙂

  11. MyCleverAlias March 11, 2011 at 11:25 am #

    The end of a new Musings, and I find myself teary-eyed. Not unusual, maybe – especially on a day when everyone is so concerned for the people of Japan, and the other Asian nations, and on the many countries whose coastlines will be impacted in ways large and small.

    In a way, it’s so appropos to be discussing the realities of life and choices we face on such a grave day. There are so many things we just can’t control. That should motivate us and also give us perspective as we look again and again at what we want and how we will get there.

    At the end of the day, our first and most vital goal is survival, right? Meeting our basic needs is the first order of business. I’m always amazed at how resilient people are in achieving this goal under the harshest of circumstances. But even in much more favorable conditions, sometimes, you just have to do what you have to do. Can’t imagine the stress of being a SBO. I admire you immensely for having the courage to go forth and try to do what you’ve studied and trained and practiced to do – in the best way for you.

    But for you and for anyone who has the courage to be bold and take risks, I admire just as much the ability to pull back, reassess and make changes when needed. There are so many paths to take – what’s next?

    Whatever you decide to do, and whatever shakes out, I just want to say that I think you’re AMAZING. Your Musings have truly infiltrated my brain. You’ve given me (and there’s NO WAY I’m the only one) so much – new ways to look at myself and the world around me. You’ve inspired me to be bold, to look more closely at what I want, to be aware and proud of the ways that I am Other. And doing so not only through an entertainment lens by examining people who break the mold and dare to stand out, but by using your professional perspective on the mind and heart.

    Whatever you do, and whenever you do it, I have no doubt that you will be making a serious impact on the people you touch. Just know that in the coming weeks and months you have a free pass to all of the questioning and angst and excitement and uncertainty and anticipation and joy that you need. The lovely pack of Others you’ve assembled will be here to support you. 🙂

    On a lighter note – I ADORE Rob’s goofball self (wasn’t that Seacrest interview a nice contrast to the agenda-ridden VF interview?). Am so excited for our girl’s take on Snow White.

    Oh, and YES, I have felt the rush of conflicting emotions you described. I just joined for the first time, and I am freaking out at all of it. But I’m also excited for the possibilities. And proud that I put myself out there. And really looking forward to the hilarious stories that will surely come out of this crazy experience. 😉

    OMG, I don’t know how to shut up. Enough. *hugs* Love!

    • JRollin5 March 11, 2011 at 12:24 pm #

      ADORE this comment and (obviously) agree 100%. Very eloquently stated. 🙂

    • MattB March 11, 2011 at 8:23 pm #

      I was wondering how to say all of that eloquently, but fortunately MCA saved me the trouble. KJ, you are a beautiful soul. Your willingness to lay yourself bare in order to better inform and inspire us is amazing. I treasure you, and I’m obviously not alone. And now I’m crushing on MCA, too.

      I don’t think there is anything harder than walking into your own small business and turning over that sign to read OPEN and then waiting for someone to walk through the door. All your future, all your sense of self worth, all your hopes and dreams are on the line. Excrutiating. And not for everybody. I’m not saying it’s not for you. Actually, I think the opposite, but only you know what is best for you.

      Here is what is obvious: you are unique, you are gifted. People respond to you and your message. Your clients will also.

      And on a further note – KS & HBC are kindred souls. I hope they get to work together. And on top of that, they’re both gorgeous.

  12. Jessica Winkle March 11, 2011 at 10:59 am #

    beautiful and inspiring post bb!

    I feel like we all struggle at some point with the question of, “is this really what I’m supposed to be doing for the rest of my life?” And honestly, there isn’t any shame in asking ourselves that question. That challenges us and motivates us to rethink our paths in life. I am one of those that is afraid to go back and get my Masters. I have the biggest fear that I will choose my major and end up hating it. Oh well, I guess that is just part of figuring life out.

    courage and prayers your way as you navigate the options for your future.


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